why hello there

It sneaks up on me sometimes. I’m just sitting silently, minding my own business, and it ambushes me from nowhere, a feeling of warm contentment. I know, that may not seem significant. So you’re content, you’re probably thinking. Good for you but what’s the big deal?

I’m not a naturally cheerful person. No, I’m not morose and depressed all the time either. I tend to be emotionally steady, I guess. I deal with things as they come. I manage disappointment like a pro and chart out new plans when fear threatens to strike. Happiness is usually the result of a great cup of coffee (preferably a white mocha or a caramel macchiato) or a fun day with my husband. (Can you say IKEA? Yeah, it’s my happy place.)

But contentment? It’s deeper, longer lasting than a day of happiness. I always tried to find that balance, but when you know your life can be more than it is, contentment can be elusive. I was stuck in an unending cycle ofย ant days, fighting to get myself on track. I couldn’t be content where I was because I knew I needed to be somewhere else. I just wasn’t sure where.

I planned and plotted for years before I finally found the right direction. Sure, I haven’t accomplished everything I’d like to in my life. But I’ll probably feel that way for the rest of my life. I kind of hope I do.

I still have a hundred ideas and multiple life purposes pulling on me, which can be overwhelming. So when contentment sneaks up on me, it’s surprising. And refreshing. It makes me realize,ย I’m not wandering any more. I’m not struggling to find my purpose. I’m on my way, heading in the right direction. And that feels good.

Now if only I could feel good about doing laundry…

Ah well. That’s what coffee’s for.

5 Comments

  1. Mark McIntire
    Jan 12, 2012 @ 18:56:41

    Happiness can start with a cup of smooth coffee, but the day still contains potholes and black ice. Contentment, however, keeps the car from going into the ditch.

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    • halee
      Jan 12, 2012 @ 20:54:01

      That’s a wonderful way to express it, Mark!

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  2. Debra Weiss
    Jan 13, 2012 @ 16:10:40

    I know exactly what you mean! There are moments when I feel so content in life. I know where I want to go, but I’m still trying to figure out how to get there. ๐Ÿ™‚

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  3. Teresa Cypher
    Jan 13, 2012 @ 16:23:46

    Ahhh…contentment. A cup of orange and spice tea, knowing my children are safe and sound, computer in front of me with my fictional characters waiting…and nothing else to do for some time. Such a wonderful feeling!

    Glad that you recognize it when it settles in; many do not. Introspection and wisdom…

    And Mark–loved your comment! Well put. ๐Ÿ™‚

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  4. halee
    Jan 16, 2012 @ 23:16:19

    It certainly is a funny thing, contentment!

    I know what you mean about the fictional characters, Teresa! However, mine are not content to live within my laptop. They prefer to ambush me whenever they get the chance. Fictional, ha! They have proven they can be quite real, lol.

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